Jeez...

I'm so horrible about checking this place...I've got to remedy that...

So, I'm married now...wedding pictures are up at my facebook, and for those of you that read this (probably just one...:P), if you want to see them just let me know...actually...

http://bertreed.instaproofs.com/collection.php?event=214588#59396343 and if it asks for my email, just input Mladaofhamelin @ yahoo.com (of course, just omit the spaces...)

That's a lot of pics...V_V

I've got to get to picking 70 out of 365 for the album, and we'll probably do that sometime this week...I mean, I have plenty of time to do that, but I don't need to procrastinate like I always do...

I've got to write the thank you cards for the gifts I got, though more importantly, I need those addresses since Mom did the mailing and all...~_~...most of the cards are finished...

Ah...married life...I get the question every time I turn around of "how is married life treating you?" The answer? Nothing different...we've lived together for over a year, know how we are and all, and the only difference is me getting my name changed...that's going to be a hard thing to get used to...especially since I like my maiden name and middle name...I don't want to throw Michelle away...V_V...but having a four-name name is a bit...awkward...I mean, Ashley Michelle Lowe Holcomb...odd...I've even contemplated doing the hyphen last name of Lowe-Holcomb, but that'll be a bitch for signatures and such...*shrugs*...I'll just have to bite the bullet I assume and just drop Michelle...

Well, as for my emotion levels go...ah...the fun life of being a tsun-tsun...Is it bad that I'm still locking a chunk of my heart away from my husband? I mean, it's not like I'm hiding a lot from him or anything, but there are just a *few* things I can't bring myself to tell him. Some are quite personal *blush*, but some are just...well, minor really. Sometimes he senses it, and let's me have it that a relationship is all about entrusting EVERYTHING to each other. I just find that a bit hard to believe. I wouldn't be surprised if there are a few things he hides from me, although, at times, I wonder if he's really just that simple of a person with me being the complicated bipolar girl...It's not an issue of trust at all. I truly believe that he'd keep my secrets, but it's just more of an issue of me being a bit embarrassed about these things I keep locked away. A part of me that I find flat out pathetic, but I've long accepted and understand the roots of. Things I can't bring myself to say anywhere else out of fear of approval, or rather, lack of approval. Jeez...I make this sound like I'm hiding some dark scary past like I killed someone...LOL...

I've let loose a lot of embarrassing things to him, like my love for dressing up and the slight desire to get into the act of the character at conventions....my love for cute stuff and figures (that he shares, oddly enough...LOL), characters/movies/music I like that might seem odd/sexist/shallow/flat-out weird, and well, that's not really that crazy of a thing. Let's phrase it this way, I'm very much a straight girl that believes in equality, but I also like things that might suggest otherwise...LOL...From sexy-dressed females to chauvenistic males...Hell, I've even told him of my thoughts on how I desire WWIII for a mass killing just to control the population (as long as no nuclear weapons are used to destroy the planet and other living creatures) and my hatred for people who give birth more than twice in their life which helps contribute to overpopulation and all that...it doesn't phaze him...so you'd think that I'd be a bit more open to him about other personal things, and yet, I can't bring myself to do it...

Perhaps it has something to do with the fact that I've already heard a portion of his thoughts on certain things that he had no idea countered a lot of what I keep locked away...I know he'd accept it ultimately, since it's nothing TRULY major...nothing life changing or anything, it's just something I can't bring myself to tell him...not to mention I have no idea how to bring it up...

Gosh, I'm still making this sound like I have some evil scheme that I can't involve him in...LOL...

Ah, the life of a tsun-tsun...Holy crap this is long...I rant too much...perhaps I should save some typing for my stories and help get those finished...